myself , and I rememberrememberto have felt quite uncomfortable and confused , at a part of myself being disposed of in that way .
Had my circumstances permitted me , I should have answered these words by an immediate journey to Paris ; but I was obliged to actactby the agency of a friend , who was upon the spot , and presentpresentat the opening of the will .
As the entire working staff of the institution was presentpresent, I thoughtthinkit a good opportunity to emphasize the fact that all of these upsetting , innovations come straight from headquarters , and not out of my excitable brain .